I've gotten lots of clarity here on EC. (Big thanks to you all who are on the journey with me.) I'm not quite ready for the big talk with my wife, but I feel like I have to do something to move my actions into the face-to-face world. Yesterday I was figuring how I could get to the nearest truly gay bar about 30 miles away, just to talk openly with someone, anyone who would understand. But honestly, the gay bar idea doesn't feel quite right, not now. This morning I was thinking about all the suggestions I've seen on EC, Sometimes people ask, "Is there an LGBT resource center in your area?". Uh, ... yeah. This feels scary because it IS appropriate, it IS available, and it is REAL. I feel like not only can I go to the LGBT resource center, but I must go.