I'm not one to have a visceral reaction to women, even though I consider myself bisexual. I can't just look at a woman and get hot and bothered. I wanted to save myself for "The One;" that one special lady who I'd share a deep emotional connection to and be in love with. I've had feelings for women since I was 15 years old, although it took me until I was 35 to acknowledge it. I've waiting 20 years to finally accept my feelings for what they are and I feel like I've been waiting forever. 50% of me wants girl-on-girl sex and wants it NOW, 50% of me wants to wait until I have, at the very least, a deep emotional connection...and hopefully be in love. The gal who I thought might be "The One" didn't turn out that way. Since the ladies have always been the hardest for me to get over, I'm still in the healing process. It usually takes months, but I am getting better at it. I've tried to move on by talking to other women and that hasn't really panned out any attraction until last night. I'm not sure why I even responded to this 26 year old bisexual female who has a boyfriend, but something in my gut said to give it a try. Well, she responded and she's beautiful. It was the first visceral reaction I've had to a female by just seeing her. I got lady wood, lol. So, the horny teenage boy wants to jump into the sack with this young, beautiful, eager 26 year old. The 35 year old in me wants to wait for the right person and have an intimacy that I've never experienced before. The horny teenager in me wants to try this out and finally get some experience under my belt and confirm that I do like this. The 35 year old in me recalls how I lost my virginity to a man and how it didn't mean a dang thing because I wasn't in love and I had hoped not to repeat that. But she's beautiful. And this would distract me fro the heartache of what I had with the last woman. SO lost and confused as to what to do.