I'm 37, and I've pretty much always known I'm not straight. Knowing and accepting are two totally different animals, and I'm struggling with the acceptance part. I suppose acceptance would be easier if I could out a name on it. I'm pretty sure I'm pan, but idk if that's it. Am I over thinking this? I'm also having loads of anxiety over the idea of coming out. Like I feel sick just thinking about it because I know most people won't accept me. Part of me wonders if this fear and anxiety I'm having is part of the reason I'm struggling to accept myself. I don't want to hide who I am anymore, and I don't know how to get over my anxiety enough to stop hiding. Sorry if this is rambly and incoherent. I'm just lost.