Alright, so I've actively identified as an FTM transguy for the last 3 years. I came out to most of my friends but held off from coming out to my family because they're very conservative, traditional people. I bound my chest, did research on surgeries, hormones, watched a bunch of trans YouTubers, read books, and came to communities like these to learn more about what it meant to be trans. I've been present for a lot of the trans discourse. Anyways, I came out to my parents as trans about a week ago, and they have basically shut me out of their life and threatened to stop helping me pay for college (which I will be absolutely screwed if they do). I didn't even want to come out, but my mother kept pressuring me and asking me if I wanted to be a guy. In the last week, I've been forced to stop binding, stop looking at all of the hormones and surgeries, and now I wonder how trans I really am. After the negative reaction, I kind of backed off of the whole "I think I'm a guy thing," and I guess I still feel comfortable with some female aspects of my body? Now I'm wondering if maybe this whole time I was just confused and desperate to fit in somewhere or if maybe I'm actually non-binary and more androgynous. I think the thing that bothers me the most about being female is the social aspect of it all. I want to be seen as a male socially, and I have traditionally male preferences and mannerisms. However, I don't really notice any body dysphoria anymore, and I think I would be comfortable if I didn't transition. Am I actually androgynous? I'm honestly really confused and stressed about everything, and I don't think any of the friends that know I'm trans would understand.