Long story short- I came out, we separated, he did not agree with this. He told me I destroyed him, broke him, made him lose his will to live. That (our separation) was about two years ago. It plunged him into a place I did not think possible, a place he didn't get out of. There were times I thought he might but clearly I was mistaken. Because today he was brought into the hospital, unresponsive due to an OD. Deliberate OD. As of now I do not know if he will pull through. I did this. I don't know how to deal with this guilt. If he dies it is me who put him in this place. I just.. was my orientation really worth a life.