Hello all! My name is Fae I'm a 20 year old person. Possibly mtf but I'm still not sure and experimenting with this stuff. So, I want to be a woman I think. It's wierd because I don't feel overly uncomfortable with being in my body most of the time but at the same time I fantasize about different points of my life genderswapped. I think about what it would like to be a woman and just want it. Even the bad stuff. The thing is I don't feel Trans enough and feel like I'm being dishonest with everyone. That's why I haven't come out properly. That and I'm afraid I suppose. It's also what leads to my next problem. I want to grow my hair out because I just can't get along well with wigs (they itch and the ones that don't are expensive and I'm broke af). The thing is I know I have to go get it cut or it won't grow well but I'm to afraid to go into a hair salon. Like what would I ask for? I'm starting University in about 8 weeks and I'm hoping then I can at least get bette stuff for my wardrobe so so I look more fem. It's the otherside of the country so there is no chance of being discovered. I just don't know what to do. O feel like some sort of impostor. Like I'm not doing enough and being dishonest but at the same time I can't bring myself to take a leap.