So tonight I went out to a party and I actually smoked weed for the first time. This isn’t like bragging or anything, I feel pretty bad about it but I really liked it. I’ve smoked before but only a normal nicotine cigarette, not weed. Well, I mean now I have. I’d already been drinking a lot and other people at the party were doing it and I just felt ready to go. There were like three other people who told me what to do and they like heated up the bong for me. I didn’t expect to like it because I hate normal cigarettes, they’re nasty but I thought that the weed didn’t taste too bad. Still nasty but more tolerable. It hurt though, my lungs and throat still hurt and it’s probably five or six hours later but that’s to be expected I guess. I coughed a lot, more than with cigarettes. By the way, I don’t smoke normally. I just don’t get why people like cigarettes or what the appeal is. But honestly, I think I can understand weed. I still feel really good mentally…not so good physically, my breath is short and my lungs hurt but I’ll be fine. I was worried because I have severe anxiety and I’ve heard weed can cause anxiety attacks but the people I was with were telling me not to freak out about smoking or else I’d have a bad trip. So I just didn’t freak out. It wasn’t really like in the movies. I mean, kind of but it’s really exaggerated in the movies. Everything just felt really funny and I did kind of trip out at one point I guess because I thought the fairy lights my friend had hung up on her fence were the city line but I’m okay now. I’m really tired so I’m gonna go to bed as soon as I’m finished this. I guess the only reason I felt bad is because my mom doesn’t know that I smoked weed or that I’ve ever smoked in the first place. Like I was even going to go home hours earlier than I did but I had to wait because my eyes were all glazed and red and I couldn’t go home like that. My pupils looked kind of dilated but I don’t know if that’s because it was dark. Then my mom drove me home and said I smelt like smoke and I just told her it was because we’d had a bonfire, which was true but I don’t know if she believed me. I think I’m in the clear. I don’t think that the five seconds I was smoking weed would make me smell like smoke anyway. It’s more likely the two hours that I spent by the bonfire. I need some discouragement because I think I’d definitely smoke weed again. It was more fun to me than drinking. So I can’t really see any downside to doing it but I don’t want to become a stoner lol. Or is it okay if you do it in moderation, like drinking? Will I eventually get sick, like from cigarettes or is it different?