Discussion in 'Gender Identity and Expression' started by Kasey, Dec 11, 2014.
I did it! I‘m finally stealth, just a normal guy for the new people I meet ^^
My binder came in and it fits! I didn't expect to be so fucking happy looking at myself in the mirror with it on under an outfit. I've only ever felt uncomfortable if not just disgusted looking at myself in the mirror. Now i get to wait on my hot topic order to get here.
I'm still somewhat in denial you see. Like surely this is all a phase, experimentation, or whatever. But if i see myself in a normal outfit that fits and still feel that same rush of happiness, in an outfit that isn't pajamas plus a beanie to hide my hair like i've got on now...maybe i'll stop being in denial then. I've always hated seeing myself in photos or hearing my voice on camera or looking at myself in the mirror. I always look away if i pass one out and about.
I don't think I've been misgendered once since going back to school.
so im just a bit over 7 months on HRT, I was at a pflag meeting last night and my friend sat next to me and of course we chatted most of the meeting, haha. at one point she leaned in and said 'your boobs are getting bigger, you definitely have some development there.' and 'you're going to need a bra soon....' big smile on her face...... oh WOW.
I wore makeup again yesterday. This is going to be a regular thing, I've decided.
I put on my new binder again, my first binder ever, and this time i think i put it on right because i'm flat now. I felt so overwhelmingly happy and excited seeing my silouette flat like that, i never imagined i'd feel that happy about wearing it. No wonder i couldn't get the idea of buying one just to try it out of my head! I usually can't even bear to look at myself in the mirror passing one in a shop and even at home all alone getting dressed its uncomfortable at best. I've literally never actually felt happy and excited seeing myself in the mirror. Its the best! Maybe i really am some kind of trans after all. I was just so excited i had to tell somebody, so i put it here. What do you all think? its quite the revelation for me.
Alex, you just had your moment it think. congrats. love this feeling, and keep this memory. it's a very special time.
I work retail, so everyone is dressed the same, and I'm rarely ever called a male (or any other male pronouns) by customers.
i just did a body shave when i got my shower, and its the first time in about 3 weeks and there's a lot less than there was even a couple months ago. that's all hormones..... so happy.
started my speech therapy today, its going to be a lot of work but im so excited to be starting. the speech pathologist says my voice is just above the mean for a masculine voice in pitch, and we can get a lot of improvement with a good plan and practice on my part. yaaaayyyyyyyyy me.
I'm allowed to wear light makeup to work, my manager is basically holding me to the same standards as the other girls. I.E. Don't go crazy and look like a hooker. Foundation and maybe some subtle eye makeup or something.
And for the first time, on Sunday, I was correctly gendered by a customer who DIDN'T immediately freak out and take it back!
sitting here doing my voice therapy home work, i love getting my voice up in a more feminine pitch. now i have to train myself to keep it there all the time. back to work.....
I'm not out to my teachers, but today my english teacher asked if I would prefer for her to call me Romeo. I said yes
I made an appt to talk to a counselor today which is a huge step for me.
So I just came out to some classmates. Not fully, just as not feeling too female. In order to calm down a passionate debater who was all about opposing transgender people based on a skewed view based on some extreme cases.
Not entirely related to being trans, but it made me happy so it's a victory in my book... I got my first tattoo! I'm very pleased with how it turned out.
pictures are required or it didnt happen
Prepped for shaving my body hair by going over it with with a trimmer. Ive never done this before. I have to say, it feels more feminine AND cleaner. Dont care what others will say. This feels great.
I was only out to a couple of people at my school. Most of my friends took it well. But after that, One of them was talking and was using my pronouns, and then within a few weeks like 5 people came up and asked me what my preferred pronouns were, I said he/him, and more and more people are starting to call me he
I lost 9kg since July and my jawline got a bit sharper. Also idk if its the way I dress or my weightloss that help me pass more but I get called a he or people are not sure of my gender more. Like today I went to Tesco and I was trying to walk between those two guys and one of them called me a lad.