So... I have ever since 13 enjoyed thinking of men for sex. I used to enjoy the idea of being submissive and bottom. I've always liked women too, but way more in the emotional and affectional way and I'm not willing to accept that all of which I've felt until now was for nothing and not real as I'm also able to feel pleasure and enjoy thinking about them when I masturbate, and I've always enjoyed seeing them naked too. Although it's never given me 100% satisfaction and pleasure as the thoughts of a man do, it's also good because the guilt isn't there later so I used to keep switching. Okay, so I live in a household and I live among people that would never 100% accept it. I've just fixed some of my relationships with people and I have just so much to take care of in life. I have high functioning depression and I never feel like I'm good enough and problems just seem to come one after the other and pile up all the time. I tackle one problem then 2 other ones appear to compensate and both of them generally cause me a great degree of shame. I've been wondering if it would be okay for me even though my sexual feelings for men are stronger than for women to just be with women and how that can work out. I wouldn't get the same degree of pleasure and wouldn't be the kind of person who could do it like 3 times in a day and like it, but I want to know from people that either enjoy men more or exclusively for sex how it was to have relationships with women. I've heard even people who only fantasize about men generally enjoy sex with their girlfriends a lot. Do you guys think this is something alright for me to do? I mean just deny my feelings for men due to the environment I live in and the problems that I already have? And besides I've always been someone who didn't think of a relationship in terms of sex. I mean I've always seen the kissing hugging and just loving each other as so much more significant.