So I was planning on telling my parents I'm trans later since some of my family is going on a trip to the beach soon and I don't want to ruin it. I know they're accepting of trans people but my parents (especially my mom) are very in denial and I think it would be an emotional blow. But things have been rough lately. Yesterday I had to go swimsuit shopping with my mom. I lobbied hard to get a fairly unoffensive top and pair of long swimshorts but my mom was insistent that I not get that outfit. My stress-induced digestive problems were acting up and I just wanted to leave so I caved and agreed to get this really feminine one-piece with a short skirt. She hasn't taken the tags off of it or washed it yet and I don't want her to. I don't plan on wearing it much and if I had my way I wouldn't even be wearing it to the beach. It's a bit late to return it and get a better suit but I don't care at this point. So on top of that bad day my depression has been acting up lately. I keep getting into fits of sadness and/or anger about why my parents have never been able to see me the way I am and why they have to twist things to see me as their dream daughter. Yesterday it was especially bad. I ended up having trouble sleeping and crying myself to sleep a bit past two. Sometimes late at night I feel really hopeless that life will ever improve for me or stop feeling so pointless. I don't know if coming out to them would help with these feelings but it must give me some sort of emotional closure, I guess. So I don't know, do you all think I should do it? I know people always say that you shouldn't come out when you don't feel ready or are in a bad emotional state or whatever. Unfortunately I'm pretty much like that constantly so I don't have a choice.