okay so basically my birth name is Sydney, but I’ve referring to myself by the name Rowan since realizing that I was nonbinary. I love the name Sydney, and I don’t mind it on the more feminine days, but I also love Rowan, and it makes me feel like I have a fresh new start. The name Sydney was also a gift to me given by my dad who died of cancer when i was young. My name is about my only memory left of him. In addition, when I was younger, all my usernames used to be ‘sydriffic6’ so in both of those ways, changing my name would erase a part of me. But isn’t that what I should want? A fresh start with a new name? When in the LGBT community, I call myself Rowan, but in real life or with people I’m not out to, I call myself Sydney. It’s kind of starting to confuse me and I’m not sure what name to fully go by.