So, I've been dating my girlfriend for a while now. It has felt like forever because she's so amazing and perfect and I can't imagine my life without her. Always, lately I've been really badly wanting to have sex with her. She told me she doesn't want to. And when I asked her why, she said she just isn't into it. I'm thinking she might be asexual but I can't be sure yet. She tells me maybe some day she'll want to have sex finally. But until then, I'm not sure what to do. Sure, I've masturbated but it's getting increasingly hard to get myself off. Any thoughts on what to do..? Keep in mind: 1. I'm 17. 2. I'm not openly gay because my parents (mostly my dad) would hate me if they knew.