Why do I have to feel so much shame about who I am? I don't understand this "internalized homophobia." I never had issue with others' sexuality, but when it's my own, I seem to browbeat myself into feeling like I just haven't tried hard enough to change, or to keep people happy or lead an "easier" life I should just keep these "offensive" or "controversial" thoughts to myself. I feel like a failure. Why rock the boat? I know the logical responses to these questions. I know life is not easier in the closet. I know people can't choose to change their sexuality. I know there's nothing inherently offensive about being gay, it's just a prejudice. I've never given it much thought at all when I've learned other people were gay or bisexual, but it's different for myself. I just can't get past some of these feelings. I'm sorry, just... another bad day, I suppose. I don't know how I can ever tell people about my sexuality if I can't get past these moments of self-loathing. I can't expect them to accept me if I can't even accept me, can I? Have others gone through these feelings? How did you get past them, if you have?