I know there is a thread already made about this not 2 far away from this one but when you hold in so much its nice 2 let go. Of course with this in mind I cant talk to anyone. Im in the closet except my sister who finds everything weird coming from me. I held it in until this year. I was strong 4 three years and I let go. Ive been hurt so much.I was bullied in 5th grade and hated myself since then. My father decided it was time to come back in2 my life but ditched us making me want 2 cry wen he didnt show up 2 meet us the 1st time hes been bac to America and wen I met him a year later he was private and I wanted to be w/ him longer. Then my crush hates me 4 some reason and wont even look at me. Now I spend my days trying to be happy that hes doing well. But its hard wen I dream about him always hating me. Sometimes im numbed and everything feels fake. So I cut or bite myself 2 4get that pain. I feel so much pain everday. How do i forget it w/out self harm?