At 30 I am not even close to having a career ( work straight out of secondary school, been stuck in the retail business for over 10 years, highest I've been is a manager of retail chain and hated it ). I actually recently enrolled into a culinary school and attending classes with students in their late teens and early twenties. I actually starting to regret my life and hated that I don't have the guts to do this sooner and for the first time I actually feels old. I finally pursuing my dream, but explaining to people on why I am taking this life change has been exhausting and embarrassing. Is it just me being self conscious? I've been stressing over this and thinking that I have made a huge mistake putting my life on hold for a year like this. I certainly don't connect with any of this teenagers. Have nothing to do with being gay, but I think this had been the general theme of my life. Never felt I am good enough.