Hi, everyone. I am relatively new here so please do pin point me to the right direction. I would like to directly get to my point.Ok so when i was like first saw this guy at my school a few years ago,i was struck by his handsome and adorable looks.He has a rather boyish personality/style so I was immediately crushing on this guy.Taking a peek at him every chance i can get back then and as often as i can.As I turned sixteen, i changed my class due to the results i was having. Every time recess arrives,I would sit alone on the futust table and picking areas with the least people.No Long later,i noticed the guy that i had a crush on from last year sat not far away from me.At fisrst, nothing suspicious came from this guy.A few weeks later,i realized that he was actually checking me out everyday.I was struck with streaks of joy.I was so happy that my crush actually noticed me at least in some way.Throughout the year,when my friends finally came and accompany me during recess but that is until the mid years.(They were angry at me for transfering away from their class,as we studied a good 3-long years together before i changed to my current class.)Despite company,he was still glancing and checking me out every recess.And whenever we bumped into each other either at the roads or canteen etc.,there's always this awkard look away/no eye contact zone arund us.I thought to myself that perhaps,we had this something going on around us.Well, when the final day of school(for him,he's 3 yrs senior than me BTW)arrived i gain up all my courage and asked to know him better(ike ask for his contct no.etc).I nstead of freaking out in which I think ike most straight guys do if a dude approaches them,he shows an interest in me.I kep in touch with him.I would aways think of him to as a "future boyfriend"of mine.And every time I thought of him/talk to him I am overwhelmed with joy.I realized my mutual crush hve moved way beyond.When he moved to another state to work,I would miss him so deeply everytime I sw a cople/love stories on TV.I thought evertything went well with us until last Friday I found out he is married.(His wife returned my call)I was in an utter shock:eek: .I could not belive what had happened.My heartbroke. I cannot believe he did not inform about it earler.I called him the next day & asked.He told me that he married earlier this year (January).A few days after my 17th birthday.I put up a completly fakish happy tone and congratulated him on his marriage but deep down I was so torn I weeped quitely as soon as I got off the phone:tears: .I could not stop thinking about the whole thing.I become very depressed and upset about this.2 day had passed but I could stil not get over it.I am still really saddened by the fact that the guy that I had deeply liked(whom I think might also had a thing on me)is married.He will no longer be my "future boyfriend".My mind is blanked with sadness and depression everytime I thought of him and his wife.How could I have gotten into such a mess.