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Rewinding Time

Discussion in 'LGBT Later in Life' started by Nic2552, Dec 6, 2019.

  1. Nic2552

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    If there was a time machine , and you had a choice to rewind time to fix a moment , would you do it or not? If so what would it be and why?? If not .. why ?

    I love chatting with you all.. hearing everyone story .. this platform was a gift itself for me personally..
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    I think looking back now in my 40s, I wish I would have been open to engage in the opportunities I had in my late teens early 20s to explore my sexuality without being held back by fear or denial....
    Looking back the signs were always there but I could not or would not be honest with myself and I felt the need to overcompensate with trying to make myself into something I was not...
     
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    I don't think I'd want to turn back time. I'm generally glad how my life turned out because I tried with each big decision to make a conscious choice about what I wanted at that particular moment. In a lot of ways being older is more satisfying than being younger because you know yourself so much better and you are hopefully accepting of and at peace with yourself.
     
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    I think that is a tough one because there are definitely things which I might want to change but at the same time those situations which perhaps didnt go as well as they could do have taught me valuable lessons and so perhaps without those things I would have made different choices in other areas or not be the person I am now.

    I totally agree that EC is a gift.
     
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    That's a very difficult question.

    I definitely have many things I regret or wish I could change, and if I knew what I know now I could of course lead a very different, more fun and successful life (by putting an old head onto young shoulders! ). But I would lose what I have now, including my child, and how could I live with that?
     
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    If there were a time machine I would want to go back and be able to come out as a teen and embrace my homosexuality. Even if in those days it would not have been easy it would have been more satisfying life earlier.
     
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    Nice threads,
    If I have a time machine and back to my past, I would like to be when I was single in 2008. Since I know that I am gay, it was difficult and still difficult until now. I am married and I have three kids now, two daughters and one son.

    In 2008 was the best time for me after I completed my bachelor degree to take a decision. I don't know if it was destiny, lucky or unlucky but after 2008 I was thinking for married. East environment and Islamic religion pushed me into straight life. But in the bottom of my heart I was thinking for not married and try to find a guy.
    I regret not to try go out from my country, go to the west and living abroad.
    I really regret for not to accept that I am gay and I don't have much friends outside and try to exit from my culture.

    I am so confused now and I don't know what to do right now to fulfill this life. My heart is empty and lonely.

    When I am getting old, it was 40 I reflected myslef that I really need a true story of my love when now I don't have someone to share my life except my wife but it is not

    Thanks
     
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    I have played this a thousand times. In the end, I just can’t see going back. I do imagine what might have been if I had accepted my self and never followed the path that I did. I often wonder if at 20 I had accepted the advances of a beautiful guy I knew, what would have happened. But I live my children, and so I accept the road I took. Of course, I probably could see myself going back 17 years. I now realize when my wife had her first breakdown I should have ended the marriage. She probably would have gotten her health together much sooner, I would have accepted my homosexuality, and we both would have been better people.
     
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    There are so many things I'd want to change, but even if I "went back", I can't envision a single person believing me about anything as they were very quickly too invested in other versions of the story. A working time-machine (as we've imagined it would work,) would be useless.
     
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    Why do you not think anyone would believe you?
     
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    For the reason I gave.

    Although, even if people did believe me, they would have avoided me anyway - and with more effort than usual. I mean, that's what happened eventually, so I suppose "going back" would just mean causing all of this to happen earlier.

    Sometimes, people see you as an undeserving, bad person, and they can't change their mind. That's just life.
     
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    So they weren't interested in your story as you tell it, they just want to make up their own version.

    It sounds like you have been having a really tough time, is that all related to your sexuality or not? Is it anything you want to talk about?
     
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    That's not straight forward... it was lots of things.
     
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    I know the exact point in time I'd rewind to and exactly what I'd change.
     
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    There have been times when I have said clumsy, awkward, insensitive things that I wish I could change. One time in particular, I told a joke that I realized afterward was offensive. If I could go back in time and change that, would I? YES! Nothing good came out of that offensive act. Then there were times in junior high school that come to mind when I joined into some inexcusable taunting, bullying behavior that I regret. If there were a way to undue the damage I did, I would be obligated do it.
     
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    I would come out at the beginning of college, 30 years ago, instead of right after college, definitely...
     
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    I would go back and take back laughing at those fag and queer jokes. Mocking or insults I aimed at gay people all the while being one myself.
     
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    Well its quite rare that these things are not intertwined. Do you want to talk about it? I have posted on your wall if you would rather chat there? Or you can tell me to go away if you dont want to talk about it.
     
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    I would go back and be open about my sexuality with my spouse when I first met her.
     
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    If I had a time machine I'm getting rich off the stock market. Life as a billionaire would be so much easier.
     
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