Hi. I'm in my early 40s, married to a man and we have 3 kids. Anyway after an affair with a female friend I've come out to my husband. It's honestly (and I know this sounds stupid) a bit of shock to me. I haven't always felt gay. I have always felt an attraction to women and thought it was just how all women felt. I don't know how much of it was social conditioning and it's just taken all this time to break through. My husband is being amazing about it now despite my pretty bad behaviour over the last year. We're deciding what to do together. I just wondered if anyone could recommend any books, websites or other resources? A lot seems to be geared towards gay men. Thank you.