I only a few months ago admitted to myself that I have been attracted to women all my life . I am 52. I was shocked at how I have repressed it although looking back on a religious upbringing I can see why . It was only when I developed a strong attraction for a close friend last year and also when a gay colleague died that I finally acknowledged it. I am have been married for 25 years with 2 children. I told my husband at Xmas - he was understandably distressed. I then sank into a deep depression from which I am only now coming out of. I don’t know where this is going to take me. I don’t know if I will stay in my marriage or if I need to explore this repressed side of myself. I feel confused and unhappy. I know I am attracted to women, I know I love my husband . I don’t know if I am lesbian or bisexual and I don’t know what to do. Not helped by living in a small village and in lockdown !