You know, it's been years since I began my "gender journey" and I feel like I got so wrapped up in it that I lost sight of where I'm actually heading. I don't know any more. I don't understand any more. I need a fresh start and reevaluation. My feelings might have changed a lot on the way. So... where should I start? All I remember is... a headache. So mich has happened that it would take ages to describe it. I have no clue any more what it means to be a man or a woman. I just live day-to-day. I learn. I take care of my dog. I listen to music. And so on. But it's bit like I'm dead on the inside, because too much has happened. Really... i just feel fatigue.