Always been attracted to women, then got into gay and transsexual porn, never been attracted to a man in real life, not really interested in face and body, don’t want to kiss a guy. Love women and can only really see myself being intimate with a girl but get intense arousal at fantasies about gay sex. Not confident and have social anxiety so only had sex with 1 girl. Tried quitting porn for nearly 2 years, fantasies persisted and not sure what to do, when I think about giving oral being bottom with a guy get intense arousal but still not sure whether I have been influenced by porn or am in denial. Have a history of OCD in many forms so not sure whether this is HOCD from porn or whether I am bisexual. Don’t think I’m gay as I’m real life women are all I pay attention to. Can anyone relate?