I'll try my best to make sense, but I make no promises. I've been questioning my gender for about 2 years now. Eventually it just kind of became overwhelming, so I cut 10+ inches of my hair off so I could see if I was more comfortable with a more masculine gender expression (not saying that everyone with short hair is masculine, it just made me feel that way). I decided to grow it out a year after having it cut. Since then, I've been feeling a lot more feminine and my desire to wear make up / dresses / stereotypical feminine clothing has increased. I understand that labels can become problems for some people and the ones I have tried haven't really seemed to fit. When I came out as a lesbian, I felt like that label completely described me. Obviously if I choose a different label other than female, I might have to change that. But anyways, I've toyed with genderqueer and nonbinary as a general term. Whenever I see guys I kind of get a surge of jealousy, like I wish I was them in a way? idk, tt would be cool if anyone had any advice for me as to what to do. I would also be open to hearing about other people's gender experiences so I can learn from them.
