It’s been driving me absolutely crazy for the past few weeks. I’m not sure if I’m just a gender-noncomforming female or if I’m trans. Any help would be greatly appreciated! Some background: -When I was in kindergarten there was this girl who’s mom let her wear boy clothes and I thought it was the coolest, most godly thing ever. I begged my mom to buy me boy clothes and over the years we settled on tomboy clothes instead -I was friends with all the guys in my neighborhood and when we all reached that prime where we began to become teens I was really confused when they all started treating me differently and eventually stopped being friends with me -Ever since my close friend came out as questioning and then nonbinary, I haven’t been able to let go of the T in LGBTQ+....I’ve watched so many trans videos and I’m not sure why but I have. They make me feel kinda better ig -Try to hide chest in public; sometimes start to panic before retelling myself that girls normally have chests and to not worry about it -Hate looking in mirrors and hate seeing myself in pictures; any confidence I somehow had before is g o n e -Much prefer masculine or baggy clothes over tight; tight shirts make me really self conscious and I end up thinking about it all day -Wish I could have the body I had before puberty -Spent many nights ironically daydreaming about what it’d be like to wake up the next day and go to school as a boy -Only ever draw boys and only ever role play as/ choose male characters to play as in video games -Despise being grouped with girls or associated with typically feminine things -Uncomfortble wearing swim suit -Euphoria-esque feel when wearing masc clothes or being referred to as “he” -Name has recently felt off for some reason...like it’s not quite right. Being called she/her gives same vibes -Long-time fascination with boy names I do have a therapist I’m pretty close with but am afraid of bringing this all up over the possibility of it becoming a huge deal and my homophobic and transphobic dad finding out :’D If you need me to clarify on anything go ahead and ask! (Within reason of course) I’m absolutely brand new to the site so I’m not quite sure how this all works but hello!