Hello, So most of my life I have identified as female with no question at all but ever since I started questioning my sexuality (realising that for a couple years of evidence that it seems legit), a couple of months later I have questioned my gender as well. I thought what if I am trans? I don’t have dysphoria and I don’t want to be a man. And now I keep thinking the thoughts “I’m trans” but I look for reasons to support this and i come back with nothing? I look at other peoples stories and I cannot relate to wanting to be a man so badly or hating myself for being a women or disgust with my female characteristics. I feel happy when I am like yeah I am a girl and it’s cool that way and then I get that thought again and I just want to not think about it anymore. I am going to see a specialist but they won’t be available till June!? I can’t really wait that long. When I try accepting the thought, i dont actually want to change anything or be different. It just feels like this intrusive thought. And tbh I have been denying my sexuality and suppressing that quite a bit so I feel like questioning my sexuality has brought a lot of distress into my lifw. So questioning my gender might just be a distraction. I love being feminine and wearing girls clothes. Dressing up and doing make up is tiring but looks nice. I just had the thougjt that if I gay then I have to be a guy too or something. And then that’s where I started to think it. I was scared rhat it was maybe true but I don’t think it is, Idk. ):
Well no, because if you are attracted to women and you are actually a guy that would mean that you were straight. It is possible to be trans and not hate your body. My ex-husband identifies as a non-binary trans guy. They dress sort of androgynously and use they pronouns. I know another person who uses it pronouns and is AFAB and usually dresses pretty fem. You could try exploring a little bit, it does not have to involve any permanent changes. If you eventually find that you are fine with identifying as female there is no harm done and if you find that being nonbinary makes you more comfortable then you win that way also.
