Hi. I'm a 24 year old girl and I'm a little confused about my sexuality. About a year and half ago, I was in a relationship with a girl. We started out as really close friends before that (for 6 months). And when I was talking to a guy friend, I realized the way I feel about her might be as more than friends. It came as a shock to me, because although I knew I had strong feelings for her, I had never considered myself as anything but straight. But when I thought about it more, it didn't seem so crazy. And when I told her, she felt the same way. (I tend to say how I feel, and this was one of the only two times there's been a reciprocation.) It didn't feel weird at all. It felt.. natural. To flirt, to sext, to be all lovey dovey with her and even to be a little more physical than kissing. But at the same time, ours was a very turbulent relationship, and also very toxic. It took all of 6 weeks for it to start becoming that way, and it took me over a year to move on from her and from all that drama. But now that I've moved past her, I'm wondering if it was a one time thing, or if it means that I might not be 100% straight. I have been slightly attracted to girls in the past, and tend to enjoy lesbian porn more than the regular girl on guy stuff. (Although I've heard this is common for women, I feel like it might have another meaning behind it. At least I think so.) I started liking this guy after she and I broke up (a year ago). He didn't like me back (as per usual). But then 6 months later (last summer) he said he wanted to sleep with me -_- I of course said no, because I didn't want to do something that would make my feelings for him linger for any longer than they have. But I have never been that intimate with a guy, and I was confused, so somehow we ended up sexting. The reason I'm adding this is, although I was okay with it, it felt a little awkward. I think it was because I've never sexted a guy so I'm not sure how to turn them on (sorry if this is too much info). But I think a smaller but equally possible reason, is that it was just more comfortable with a girl. And that thought scares me a little. I've been trying to actively date lately, but am still a little apprehensive to actually meet girls. I guess a part of me is afraid. But I also want to experience being that intimate with a girl. Not to experiment, but because I know I liked it. I guess what might be stopping me is a part of me still has that fantasy of a perfect time having sex with a guy, and waiting for someone special. I know its old fashioned, and given all this info, probably unrealistic. But I'm really confused as to how to go about whats going through my head lately. My friends are all very supportive, but none of them are in this situation, or even anything similar. None of them are gay, or bi, etc. And none of them are questioning their sexuality. I'm still trying to figure out if I'm bi or pansexual. When I first thought about it, I was completely okay with it. But now the more thought I've given it, the more the idea of being anything but straight is really scary to me now.. Just need some perspective and someone to talk to that can relate to this even a little.