So, I thought I was finally progressing and accepting who I am but these last few days I have been overwhelmed with sadness. It is so strong, I can feel it in my chest... if that makes any sense. I think the root of it started with me attending a destination wedding and wanting more than anything for that to be me. It completely confused me and I felt like I had convinced myself that maybe I was wrong about being gay and it could be me. However, my flight left a day later than everyone else's, so I decided to go have a drink downtown. I ended up meeting this amazing guy and we completely hit it off and had a great time. Since I was somewhere where nobody knew me, I could just be completely open, and it felt really good. But now ever since I am back home, this sadness just won't go away. I just don't even know what to do anymore or how much more of this I can take.... I feel like I am constantly on the verge of breaking down and crying. Is just a normal part of the acceptance process?! What is going on with me...? I feel like an idiot.