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overthinking my life

Discussion in 'Sexual Orientation' started by whyisthismylife, Jun 23, 2016.

  1. whyisthismylife

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    I casually overthink everything, always. Anything from my clothes to what I just said I over-analyze, and it is a terrible inconvenience, especially when I'm questioning my sexuality. Now you have that bit of background let me begin.

    I have always thought there was something different about myself and just quietly shoved it to the back of my mind. Now that I am mid sexuality crisis, I feel it has something to do with it. But when I consider sexual and romantic feelings towards others, I get confused. Do I just like this person or have a crush on them?, Do I want to be her, or be under her? And then I spiral into a black vortex of my own thoughts that leads to no where. I find it incredibly frustrating.

    I have always found myself checking other women out, and when I imagine myself with a partner I guess I picture myself with a woman. I have never found traditionally "hot" guys hot, but with females I kind of get it. I can honestly say I have never seen a man and swooned... (for lack of a better term) but does that mean I am just extremely particular? Am I just thinking this because of all the heteronormativity?

    And when it comes to porn... looking at a penis is honestly just like looking at an elbow if not a little unsettling, but with lesbian porn I just feel just fine.

    Help!

    Btw I'm new here... hello!
     
  2. Sayonara

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    You sound like you could be a lesbian who could be in denial because of your overthinking problem. Don't worry, I overthink all the time, I got the same doubt problems. :stuck_out_tongue_closed_eyes:

    I know what you mean by feeling like looking at dicks is unsettling. I think it's downright uncomfortable/repulsive to look at that stuff. Yuck.
     
  3. whyisthismylife

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    I have kind of been leaning towards lesbian in labels... Thanks so much for your help!