Okay, so, I have Pure-O OCD (intrusive thoughts). Basically I have irrational fears of turning into a pedophile, schizophrenic and murderer. I can obsess about these fears so much I'll give myself panic/anxiety attacks. I've been on Prozac for six months though and it's helped considerably. Before I came out as a lesbian I knew for a fact that I liked women. Starting from age 13, I would stare at pretty females in stores and check out their asses and whatnot. When I had (sexual) fantasies it was always about women. I couldn't think of being intimate with a male - it just felt too weird...it wasn't right. (And I have been with guys, and it WAS weird and it DID feel wrong). Lately I've been obsessing about whether or not I am in fact gay. On one hand I know it is just my OCD giving me something new to freak out over. On the other hand I don't know for sure if it IS in my fact my OCD. The thing with OCD is, if you worry about something it most likely is not true. Like I said before, I have always felt attracted to women, so what am I so worried about? I've been waking up in the middle of the night, panicking, and worrying that I might be straight after all. It's hell. I hope I'm making sense... My OCD is making my life hell and I don't know what to do or think.