I'm so messed up right now I'm hoping just by getting a few things out I'll be able to sleep. My anxiety is really high today and I've been doing so well lately when it comes back it's like a slap in the face. I know I have attachment issues. I don't get close to women because when I do I fall hard for them. So as I've been dating this woman I know I'm falling into that same cycle again. I do like her, she's fun to be around but I'm getting that all consuming feeling that happens to me. I fear rejection big time, and I know that about me. We really are in the early stages of dating. But I can't get her out of my mind. If she knew how much I thought about her she'd probably run thinking I was some sort of nut case. I have a problem with compulsive thinking and I am in therapy. It's not just with relationships it crosses over into other aspects of my life. And I can't just leave something be. I have very black and white thinking. For whatever reason this thing with her just is driving me nuts, it's like nothing else exists or matters in my life. I live for the next text message, phone call or date. I can't even really discribe it. It's just like I'll be devistated if I don't hear from her and I'm living one moment to the next waiting for that contact. Sometimes I think I should just tell her I can't do this right now, but the thought of not seeing her again sends me back to that dark place in my mind I've fought so hard to overcome. I've got a job and a child and I'm still navigating a separation from my husband -I can't take much more.