Hi all, So like the title says, at the age of 23, I've never been in a relationship. Never even kissed anyone actually. I'm starting to get rather hopeless regarding my dating situation. I live in a rural college town with only so many gay women. On top of that small dating pool, I'm transgender too, so I have to find a woman who likes women, and also doesn't mind the fact that I'm trans. So far I just don't see a relationship in my near future. I went to the drag show in the town over last weekend (pretty much the only queer hangout in the area), and I kept having super bad social anxiety while I was there. I was nearly on the edge of tears. I kept thinking that people were looking at me, and that they were just staring at me because I'm trans. There were a few people staring at me, but it could have been for a litany of reasons; one of which is they thought that I was attractive. My crippling lack of confidence stops me from believing this though. I'm on like every dating app available but haven't had any luck with any of them. Although, I'm pretty much only waiting for other people to message me. Which they do, it's just usually not someone I'm attracted to. I would message someone but my lack of confidence stops me. The last two friends I had crushes on didn't pan out, and even went super mega embarrassingly on one occasion. I've only ever been rejected, and I've tried many times over the course of my life. Like, I get hit on by guys ALL THE FREAKING TIME on the dating apps (the ones that don't stop straight people from seeing/messaging you), but I don't like guys. I've thought about just trying out dating a guy though, just because I'm so lonely. I'm really just not attracted to like 99% of guys though. I'm also quite femme and I don't think girls who see me would think that I'm gay. Ugh, I'm just lonely, frustrated, feel like I'm going to be single forever, and just really needed to vent.