Mtf body awareness. Wow. Now, how do I navigate this?

My chest was never a big problem for me. I was always more dysphoric about my body hair and facial hair. And I haven't gone shirtless in a number of years, even in the pool. I know where you're coming from..

And remember, even ciswomen can have small breasts and get jealous of those with larger ones.

 

It was just in the past couple of years that I started feeling it. Earlier this summer, I started wearing a dress and I noticed the way I looked in the dress and it kinda looked like I was developing breasts. A bit more recently I started wearing a bra that I stuff with boxers. The first one I bought was a size 42C and I thought I wanted my fake breasts to be smaller and less obvious. I soon noticed that the 42 was too small for my chest (I've put on some weight since the last time I measured it), so I went for a 44. Went I went looking for a larger bra, I initially wanted a D cup, but couldn't find any at the store I went to and ended up buying a DD. I love the way it makes me look and feel. I've not gotten to the point where even in the evening as I'm lounging around without my bra, I miss wearing it and sometimes put on the smaller one for a few hours.

 

Actually, I don't have breasts. Sorry if I was misleading, and I feel like I wish I did, and wearing a bra, especially when it's stuffed, makes me feel more comfortable.

 

I was always very jealous / envious of women with breasts, didn't have to be large but having a flat chest did not sit well since I was a teen. I started cross dressing and later going out dressed, this past year I started wearing breast forms and started wearing them most waking hours. Fast forward now I am currently recovering from having breast augmentation, I just got fitted for my first bra since surgery. I am currently wearing a C cup!