Hi everyone, I know this forum is full of same vibe topic, I've read a bunch of them seeking for answer but instead it made me write mine. That's the first time to me I need to express my concerns and I've never been lost like that. I'm a 23 french guy, (who doesn't speak english very well) still in the closet and no one knows or even suspecting me (and still not sure about that). Eh, and I'm Muslim too, so coming out is not very the goal here since my mom lives alone, my father left us one day without preventing (2 years ago) and I know for sure that I would break my mom if I tell here. I'm very ok with this, I know I will tell her one day eventually but not for now considering that I've kinda replaced my father (I'm the oldest) to my little bros. The burden is quite heavy but still I love them and do or won't do anything that hurt them. My gay life is mostly on dating apps... not so fun.That being said, I'm here to talk about that very good friend of mine who's been very playful with me, making endless eye-contact (damp as well)... and much more. Sorry I try my best to express myself in english so I might not translate as strongly as I think. We know each other since I'm 16yo (today 23). We are a very solid group of friend (5-6) and we see each other almost every day. But lately, maybe for 6-7 months I would say, the closest friend is clearly flirting with me. He started doing it when his ex girlfriend broke with him (his first love according to him). Since then, I was very supportive (and always straight acting). Time flies and we are seeing each other more and more, sometimes (without saying it to each other) lying to our mutual friends, (about what we were doing tonight, or if we went out or not) just to stay the two of us. He started by complementing me, how I was great looking (which I think he's wrong lol). Didn't give much attention to this, he always was teasing and foolish (in the good way). Then he invited me to sushi restaurant, said it was our date, our one-to-one... I took it very slightly and kept that way with him. So we are two officially straight guys, eating in a restaurant one-to-one (even though we do everything as a group), complementing each other, asking where we at with girls and a lot of damp eye contact and silly smiles... After that, we are seeing each other literally EVERY DAY, pretending to our friend we were watching anime (and we did) and with this constant "hit and run", like a flirt game. He's sweet talking me, either I step back or I do the same, a lot of hints but nothing conclusive. More lately, he took it to the next level : sexual hints. Saying he may "deal with my ass", miming blowjob and he even gave me a nickname with "bae" in it and I use it for him as well. In the same time, he sometimes express how much gay stuff gross him out (two guys kissing for example) but very friendly to outed gay guys we know. 1 month ago, I pretended I went to see a girl (was a dude lol) and he kept telling me he didn't know about that, he thought I would've tell him or even take him on a date. I didn't answer him, just a smile and told him he acted silly (because you never know). The day after, he told me about that again (and can't tell if ironic or he uses irony to make it unclear). We were talking about the fact he got hurt whent I didn't tell him about the "date with the girl". Me : "Its ok, you know I tell you everything" Him : "Emmh... And once again, I though you were going to date with me" Me : "We can" Him : "I'm gonna to pick you up" (in the way he's clearly into me) Me : "We'll see which one he's gonna pick up who" Him : "No worries, I'm an enterprising guy + a gif with a heart" Plus, we booked with the group (4 of us) a big villa for summer. We are going with one couple plus him and me. He made me notice that we are going there as couples, and said we could form one, act like one there... but still very ironical. I love him and hate him for that, can you not make it simple lol ? I took in charge the research for an AirBnB, really wanted to find one place with 2 large bed, which I did. We even booked for only 2 of us another AirBnB 3 days before our friends get to us, and with one bed too. He told me many times that he would do great things under sheets. This week end (2 days ago), birthday party in his house for one of these mutual friends. His ex GF came too, and it was really weird. After all the drinks, he invited me to stay to sleep with him because he wouldn't let me drive. He added (I didn't say a word yet) that he didn't care about his ex, and I should stay. I was happy and excited so I accepted. One hour later, when we were about to go to sleep, he ended sleeping with his ex. He even suggest sleeping in his sister's bed. I declined and pretending I was fine to go home and wanted to get to my bed. I was deeply disappointed, and a felt a bit betrayed. What does he want ? What's the deal with him ? with me ? But I'm very tortured, because I felt for him. I don't know if we are still playing a game, or if we are two guys (me in the closet, and him bisexual I would say, or discovering his attraction to guys) waiting the other guy making one step that will make us kiss. I'm putting a lot of hope on this holiday. As I said, I can't tell I'm gay, too afraid he's not and put me in a very difficult spot with him and maybe my other friends which leads to my family. I know I will come out, but not now, it's not my time yet. Did you experience something similar ? How can I make him make a move on me ? Every day I'm seeing him I want something happens, and he said he's enterprising so I'm expecting him to do so. Any help ? Thanks a lot and sorry for my poor english.