Married with kids and questioning my sexuality

Because at the time I thought what I was feeling was true love, i was very attracted to my wife and I believe and I still believe I feel in love with her and during our time together I had none of the thoughts or urges I'm having now towards the end. If I would have been having all this going on in my head I would have never married and ruined someone else's life! Definitely not on purpose...

 

I'm not attracted to my friends... I have plenty of friends of both sexes that I don't feel anything for romantically.

 

Well my wife and i have decided to end our marriage... everything just became to much to fast. It's very bitter sweet. On one hand I'm scared of being alone and with all I'm going through I hate to even think of her with someone else! Selfish I know! I can't have my cake and eat it to and she deserves to be completely happy with someone who can give himself to her completely. I also don't know what the hell I'm doing out here... the guy I have been seeing which my wife told me to pursue things after our seperation, is awesome. He gives me butterflies and at the same time I feel completely comfortable with him. Only catch is he works a lot and says he likes me and I'm perfect but then we barley talk and see each other like once a week. I've asked if he's dealing with other people or if he is in a relationship and he says no but.... Idk! I think I will have to end things cause I just think we are in different head spaces. And I tried not to catch feelings but I so did! And I hate that I did and it may be because of my current situation that he is a lil stand off ish but I just don't know!