Let see if I can break this down with out a long post. Im 39, married to a man 11 years, 2 kids aged 9 and 6. 3 years ago I realized I liked woman more than just platonically. I lusted over a friend and my husband found out. He outted me to her husband and our friendship ended. Nothing more than a peck every happened but the loss of our friendship devastated me. Went to counseling. Worked on my marriage thought I was "better". Decided with hubby that I could have a girlfriend. Meet her via ###### and the gym"She worked out at the gym I teach at." We've been seeing each other 1 year and since Covid I fell in love with each her. She also has 2 kids around my kids ages. Divorced from a woman 12 yrs ago. My hubby is an amazing father and provider but we have never matched sexually. NEVER. Ive had several talks about it and counseling as stated before. The love making with my GF is explosive and hours long. I even love her flaws and I do see them. I enjoy all my time with her. Shopping, the talks, etc.....She is all I want to be with. She has helped be genuine and not put on a show to appease others. Problem is I'm a stay at home mom. I have a masters and worked till we moved a few yrs ago. Im back in school for a 2nd masters in school counseling. I don't have a pot to piss in! I feel im living a lie now. I've grown tremendously personally! Friends can see my change in attitude. I've figured out what makes me tick at almost 40. I want to divorce. I need advise on how to go about this. I don't want to hurt him but realizing Im more lesbian that bisexual right now is real! He is trying to hang on to the marriage. There are other issues that we keep going around and around about. I feel lost! My family is bible belt Christians and have no clue I feel this way! Any advise or insight is appreciated!