Hey EC, So I've been struggling about this question for a decade now. Am I straight? Am I bi? Am I gay? Somewhere in between? I've got caring yet psycho parents who are homophobic, which has also influenced this long debate with myself. Now I don't care so much what they think. (Which makes me happy!... well not sure if I should be though... but whatever I am!) But now about my sexuality... unsure if any of this talk is graphic.. so just letting you know. During my school years I did not experiment with either girls or guys, I was a shy kid. I primarily look at gay porn 'cause I find it hot, though I tend to like straight to gay guy porn, or the initial storyline climaxing to when they actually have sex. 70 percent of the time I glaze over the sex part, sometimes I get into the whole passion of it. Anyways in daily life, I find myself checking out guys. But there are those (few and occasional) times I gain an attraction to women or maybe I find them appealing. (That's what I am not sure about)... I did recently had sex with a guy for the first time, I found the affection and foreplay a lot more arousing than the sex part, which I only got pleasure through trying to please him. Oral and bottoming, just not that into it, not painful, just disinterested. But then again that was my first... But I know I like guys, so being straight is obviously ruled out. I think (maybe its denial) I've been attracted to a few girls. When I see a girl of a particular "type" (things I like in them....) I get interested in them. I keep looking at them. But I don't really act on it. Maybe I'm shy. I'm interested in experimenting with girls. But then again I love trying new things... ... But this bugs me... :bang: On occasion, not often at all, I'll watch some lesbian and bisexual porn, (out of the blue, maybe because I'm sick of gay porn)... I do get aroused. Not as easily as I do with gay porn though. But my question to myself is am I gay or bi? I feel like I can probably answer this if I experiment. Maybe this more of a rant, but what do you EC folk think? :icon_bigg ---------- Post added 25th Aug 2013 at 07:55 PM ---------- Just to add: I've always been wanting to cling on to being straight, its been rough a ride, but know I admit to myself that I like boys.