Dear All, For decades I have been wondering my sexuality and do believe until now, that I am `somewhere between gay and straight`. There are plenty of reasons for me for not being straight and I do think I am ok with that and also many reasons why I think I am not homosexual. I had several straight long relationships with women and always found that over time, weeks/months my urge to have sex with them faded away, especially when living together. I was always thinking that the `obligation to have sex` made me stop wanting it and sometimes I broke up the relationship or more often I cheated on one of my gf`s, as I never had these `arousal problems` with a fling or one night stand...and did love the excitement ONS bring. I have had plenty of great sexual encounters with women and do enjoy to have sex with them in every way ( love giving oral too), but the thought of being gay/bi sexual has never left my mind and this gets stronger in the past months. Because, why as I assume myself some more or less Bi sexual, I can not keep up the sexual part of a relationship going on and start to feel bored and pressure to perform after some weeks/months? Deep inside I AM gay? I wonder if anyone has experience with this? A long term relationship with a woman seems not to be an option because of `my problem` and this is something I want to find out as I am old enough now All thoughts/remarks are very welcomed.