Ever since the start of the new year I've been to the gym everyday. Sadly it doesn't seem to be helping. So soon I'll be starting a strick diet. Processed foods also do a number on my skin. So the less of that as possible, the better. I'm doing all of this to try to become more attractive. But the problem there is that it's hard to motivate yourself to look better and workout at the gym everyday for shallow, empty reasons. Plus there's no guarantee that I'll be able to have a relationship with someone for any sensible period of time. But if I give up I'll feel worse. Idk what to do. Just watch motivational videos on YouTube I guess. Or try to force my mind into becoming obsessed with it. I enjoy living in such states of mind. Its kinda like therapy. But I keep jumping back to searching for meaning in my life. What can I do to motivate myself to continue doing this? Maybe I'm just not trying hard enough.