Lately, in trying to take the step of coming out to someone in my life, In doing so, I've realized the distance that is now between me and my friends and family. I wonder if anyone else has experienced this, because I am feeling a stronger urge to come out everyday, but this is a big obstacle for me. I've always been very private/shy about talking about personal things, but I did have a couple of close friends that I felt a bit more comfortable talking to. I told my best friend that I grew up with everything but I'm realizing now, still held back more on my feelings (probably due to my uncertainty and/or embarrassment). Now that we are older, we talk much less. We text somewhat regularly, but we no longer talk on the phone or spend time really talking about stuff like we used to. It is in part my own internalizing my feelings, but I also feel like they are not there for me like they used to be. We are older and busier and our lives are different. They have kids and we just don't have the same interests/priorities. Same for family. We are close, but I have held back this part of me and am struggling to make it known. I made an attempt to come out to one of my best friends. I texted her in a private text (we have a group text that we usually chat in). I told her that I really needed to talk to her about something. She asked if I was okay and I told her that I was. Then I said that I have been dealing with something on my own that I really need to talk to someone else about. She replied that I can call her anytime and that she's be home that night if I wanted to call her. After having a couple of glasses of wine (liquid courage), I was trying to get the guts up to call her and then my electricity went out. Without electricity my phone doesn't work and my cell service is spotty. So, I texted her and told her that my power was out. I didn't bring up what I texted earlier and neither did she. That was Monday. It is now Friday. I never called and didn't text her about it again. What bothers me is that she didn't even text or call me to check in after that... I mean not even to just see if I was okay. I'm really having a hard time and feel like nobody is there for me, even when I make an attempt to reach out. It makes me feel so much more distant from people and harder to talk to anyone. I makes me just think, screw it, why do I even care to tell anyone? It kind os sucks though. I try to be there for the people in my life when they need me but feel like once they have something else; partner, kids, whatever... I no longer matter. It is harder to make them see me and who I am , because they just aren't looking or paying attention. I'm kind of thinking of just coming out in a text and being done with it. Any thoughts? Has anyone else struggled with the distance that develops between you and the people in your life, from both hiding or just life changes?