My apologies in advance for this long post. Let me preface this with that I've been out as a lesbian for the past five years, since I was sixteen. I am twenty-one now. Before that, I was in semi-denial during middle school up to the point of acceptance; I'd sort of identified as bisexual but went for guys because of heteronormativity and because they were "easier". There wasn't any attraction there. Since coming out as a lesbian, I sometimes used the the term "homosexual, panromantic" because I figured I could sometimes feel romantically attracted to a man, but not often and not sexually. Although I admit, I have been curious about guys sometimes, but still never really attracted guys. I do have anxiety about "proving my gayness". Flash forward to earlier this week: I was on ######. The pool of girls was beginning to dry down and I was curious to find more pick up lines and improve my "game", so to speak. So I switched my preferences from exclusively women to men and women, so I could learn pick up lines from guys (not actually being interested in them) and find a slightly bigger pool of women. I've done this a few times before over the past couple of years, for some reason I find more girls in this option, though I don't understand why the algorithm does that. So, I'm swiping left on pretty much every guy, just reading their bios and not being any way attracted to them even if they were conventionally attractive or had a seemingly nice personality. I swipe right on some girls I find there, too. Then, I come upon one this one guy, I'll call him G. I read his bio and see his pictures, and for once I'm actually intrigued and I find him pretty cute. I didn't put too much thought into it, I just swiped right on him and we matched. I waited for him to message first. Low and behold, he does and we actually strike up a good conversation. We quickly found a great banter and then kinda started flirting. And out of nowhere I just felt started feeling really really attracted to him. Both romantically, and for a first, sexually. We set up a date for some day later in the week and the flirting intensifies more. He gives me his number and we talked for five hours straight. I have never felt: 1) this attracted to a guy before (especially sexually), and 2) this attracted to anyone since my ex-girlfriend of last year. Here's the thing: he knows I'm gay, too. I mentioned that at the beginning and told him I was just kinda attracted to him and he's been completely respectful of that. We've been talking ever since. However, this has caused me to question my sexual orientation. I keep telling myself I'm not bi because I don't feel bi. That my sexual orientation is "gay and G" (G standing for the first initial of his name and me being alliterative). Like I know bisexuality isn't always 50/50 and you can have preferences, but I truly don't feel bisexual. I don't want to be bisexual. He's the only guy I've felt this strongly about. Do I have internalized biphobia? My best friend in the whole world is bisexual, and I've been talking to her about this and she gets me, but I'm still struggling. Is this is Kinsey Level 5? G being the "incidental" guy? I don't see myself every marrying a guy or anything like that, but I cannot deny my chemistry and sexual attraction to this guy. And now I'm having an existential crisis and questioning myself. Help? Am I still a lesbian, albeit a "homoflexible" one?