Hi all, new here. And I am sorry if this is long, but I am really just starting to learn and am confused. OK, so I recently became friends with someone who is trans and we have gotten really close in the last year (platonically). I have known trans people before, but have never really had friends who were trans or interacted with many trans people (I am extremely introverted, so my circle is small and I am not known to socialize much). Because I care for this person so much, I have spent a lot of time researching trans issues, etc. because at no point do I want to accidentally disrespect or invalidate them. Anyway, my research has brought me to a lot of terms. I have already had one "oh! I'm not broken!" moment when I discovered asexuals when I was researching sexuality. So, I have done webinars and done independent research on trans issues, and now it has me thinking about my life. I was assigned female at birth, but it brought up memories of when I was a kid and was convinced I was supposed to be a boy and something had happened to my genitals. Nothing did, it was a storyline I created when I was very young. Growing up I was always described as a "tomboy," which I don't think is a term anyone uses anymore. As I got older, I became more... feminine I guess. I don't wear dresses, but I do dress more feminine than I used to. I have an unhealthy obsession with makeup... but I rarely actually wear it. I paint my nails. However, I only ever grew my hair long because I was trying to prevent being constantly misgendered. When my hair is short everyone thinks I am a man. And this has led to a few very embarrassing moments. So my hair is long, but constantly in a ponytail. I also don't seem to make friends with women easily as I find our interests are vastly different and have always had more male friends because of this (which gets tough when everyone starts getting married and wives get touchy about female friends). Here's the thing. I feel comfortable with she/her pronouns. I feel ok identifying as a female. But it doesn't feel right. Like... I don't know, I don't feel really female, but I'm not male, either. I could fit either "norm" at any given time, sometimes more of one than the other. If that makes any kind of sense. I have seen a few terms now that could possibly fit me, but I'm not sure, and I don't know if this is what I really feel is me. Bigender, gender fluid, and gender flux are the main three. I'm not sure I understand fully what they each mean and how they could relate to me. I hope I made some kind of sense. I am just confused and trying to figure out where I fit in. Should I keep researching? Do I seek out someone to talk to? I just don't know.