Just to prove that hicks towns suck...

Okay so like I said in my introduction thinger whatever, I came out when I was 12. But I guess the details are more interesting than just saying that.

Well like almost everything I did the whole denial thing. I figured out I was gay when I was 10 and got a huge crush on this girl (who was in my gym class in 6th grade >.<) but I just tried to convince myself I was straight or bi at most. So I dated some guys. Maybe it's just the straight ones but they're terrible kissers, anywho. ^.^
So I met some online people on this thing called Paltalk one summer and they were all all happy and out and all of that. They really helped me get over the denial bit. Thank god for the internet, right?
And then when I got back to school. And I wanted to tell my friends but I just couldn't. It's terrible trying to just get out three words, isn't it? And lesbian sounded like the ugliest word ever. So I kind of got thinking I would never get around to telling them.
And that's when they all started asking. o.o My friend Laura was the first, she was at my house and we were in my room when she just randomly said, "Lyssehpoo you're a lesbian, aren't you?" And when I said yes she like squealed and jumped on me going, "I knew it, I knew it."
And I really wasn't planning on telling anyone else. But then one of the school's bigger gossipy types found out somehow. Which magically fell on Spanish Day (meaning my whole grade was in the gym with nothing to do but talk for an entire day.)
Now remember, conservative rednecks that generally hate everyone but themselves. So it didn't go over well. It started at about 7:30 am (terrible time to be in school isn't it) I walked by the girl and she said to here friend, "Quick cover up, you don't want the dyke seeing down your shirt." And of course her and the other girl, who I used to get on pretty well with, did. And then my entire grade knew within the hour. And it spread to everyone else in the school. For the most part everyone reacted like that girl and her friend did. Even the teachers.
And being such a small town, it spread to everyone. Like people I didn't know were giving me funny looks in the local general store. So I just figured I had to tell my parents and everyone or someone else would. I told my mom in a letter and she cried and told me she had already picked out the song she would have played at my wedding. My dad didn't take it too well, but that wasn't too big a deal as we didn't get on all to begin with. And everyone else had a similar reaction.
But still, I'd totally do it over again. Even if others didn't take it well there were some people who were really supportive who I never would have started talking to. And most of my friends were just as awesome as Laura. Not to mention I felt loads better.
So there you go, even though it's super long.

 

Well something of the girls here have done some rather interesting things. This one went around telling people I asked her out. But she stopped when I told her that if she kept telling people that I really was going to start hitting on her.
Oh well. They're not exactly peachy people to begin with. My friend, JayTee or Jimmy or whatever he uses on here, he can tell you. He's in the closet but he still gets it for being in the GSA.