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I've got it sooooo bad! Make it stop!

Discussion in 'LGBT Later in Life' started by RJay, Jun 18, 2017.

  1. Really

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    I think if someone was doing to me what you're doing and I didn't like it, I would be creating as much distance between us as I could.
    My only thought was how's her confidence? Because if it's super low, this might just be making her feel good like a drug rather than anything romantic.
     
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    Get used to it RJay the lesbians are loving you....
     
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    Total LOL on this, as this thought has crossed my own mind a few times in my life. Oh wait, I mean 6 Billion times :wink:

    My oh my...what on earth is going on at that day care to get it shut down for a week?--haha...But it got me thinking, would be cool if the Dept of Health could shut down YOUR apartment building for a week...forcing you to sleep over at V's, and yada yada yada. That would be the most inconvenient/convenient Dept. of Health shut down ever!!
     
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  4. RJay

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    You are terrible. :wink:
     
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    HAHAHAHAHA there u go RJay
     
  6. takemeout

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    Ugh, I've just read the whole thing, and frankly, I had really hoped that on the 20th page there is going to be a discussion about wedding cake.
     
  7. RJay

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    Haha. Sorry to disappoint.
     
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    Don't be sorry, it's a great read anyway :slight_smile:
     
  9. silverhalo

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    Just give us another 5 pages. We are close.
     
  10. Lucky in Life

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    Just stopped by to say I think you're doing great, Rjay! A few days back you mentioned kissing V on the neck, and then a day or two ago, playing with her hair. Those are pretty unmistakable signals, at least in my little world, but the emotional bonds you are building with V are the real superstructure of your relationship, and I'm getting the sense those are getting stronger all the time. Rooting for ya!
     
  11. RJay

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    You are so bad. :slight_smile: I certainly asked for it with all my nonsense, though. :wink:

    Jesus, if she finds this thread now, it's certainly game over.

    Spent 3 hours with V and our kids today. THREE HOURS. God, my life is excruciating. It was marvelous but also maddening. She acts so completely nonchalant, like absolutely nothing strange is happening. Perhaps I'm acting that way too, but the difference is I *KNOW* what's going through my head. She's probably blissfully unaware that there is any drama at all. Honestly, I don't get it.

    My latest thought is that perhaps V is just being tolerant of my affection because she doesn't want to be mean or hurt my feelings. Maybe because she has had some friendships end badly in the past, she is just trying to be extra nice and supportive. Maybe she knows I'm into her but thinks it's just because I just figured out I'm gay, and she is hoping I will just naturally get over it when I meet someone else who isn't straight? This is a plausible theory to me. But who knows unless we talk about it? I still can't bring myself to do that!

    When we said goodbye, I held her tight after our customary kiss on the cheek, but I sighed really deeply before letting her go. It felt like forever. Very unmistakable. In fact, so unmistakable, that she afterwards looked me in the eyes and kind of chuckled nervously but all with that warm smile I love so much. She said goodbye, and I did too, and we went our separate ways.

    Every time something like this goes down, I feel a sense of impending doom, as I've mentioned before. The old feeling of, "surely, she'll have nothing more to do with me now!" I just hope I get a text later.
     
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    RJay if V signs up here send her our way and we will soon have you happily ever after haha

    Ok so you know what's going on in your head but you have absolutely no idea what's going on in hers, sure maybe she doesn't want to offend you and thinks you'll get over it, or maybe she is like 'oh RJay, I've never met a woman's like you before. I've never felt so drawn and comfortable with someone my whole entire life. I don't know what's happening to me but the closer you get the more I want'. Maybe every night she goes home and is like she is getting closer but when is she just going to kiss me haha
     
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    OMG, the encouragement I get from you!!! Hahaha... But honestly, this is ridiculous knowing that it could be either of those things or something else entirely going through her head! How is it that people handle this shit all the time?! I feel like this whole situation is like the end of the world.
     
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    Haha sorry I will stop.........otherwise you will unfriend me haha
     
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    Seriously, though, if when you get together, have her read this thread. We'd love to see her reaction!
     
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    I feel like she would love to read it too.
     
  17. RJay

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    OMG, anyone in their right mind would be horrified. Then again, she is a little nuts.
     
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    Does anyone have rights to the movie version yet?:stuck_out_tongue_closed_eyes:
     
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    We are all going to play ourselves in it though right?
     
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    Oh absolutely! It will be our big break.
     
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