Wow. My parents seemed homophobic as I was groing up. Fear of rejection surely played a part of my hiding in the closet, and when I was sexually involved with guys, and thinking I had to live my life this way, I had plans to quit college and move to a big city. As the years passed, they became more progressive in their thought. Years ago, my wife made comments that led my mother to tell me that I was okay as far as she was concerned , AND I STILL COULDN'T SAY IT! So I can definitely understand. As my marriage was really coming apart (not really directly related to my homosexuality), I didn't have the courage to come out to my parents until they went to Janet and Karen's wedding and posted about it on Facebook, with pictures of them with the brides, declaring their support for gay marriage to all. I can't really give you much advice, I just want you to know I feel for you, and appreciate you sharing your story.