I was lying in bed looking at my partner this morning with a lot of thoughts running through my head. We love each other deeply, but the ways we express our love is very different. He is the kind of person who wears his heart on his sleeve, is very expressive physically and in his facial expressions, he loves to cuddle and be close to me, I can tell that he has strong and intense lustful feelings for me, almost to the the extent reminiscent of someone who is "clingy". As for myself, in general (not just in our relationship / romantically), I don't experience or express intense feelings or emotions about anything any more. I used to though. I show my love in other ways. I've experienced VERY strong and intense and clingy feelings toward other guys in the past, and during the course of my current relationship, I've wondered if that might be a sign that I wasn't truely in love with him, but my thoughts this morning provided a bit of clarity: EVERY TIME in the past, when I've had strong and intense feelings and emotions (not just in a romantic sense), they have driven me a bit crazy, completely losing my logical mind, causing me to push people away, scare people away and often actually frighten people. Almost like I became those feelings instead of just feeling them. Sort of like the incredible hulk but with every emotion other than anger. I had no control over any of my usual mental functions and thoughts when I was in those states, it was so absorbing. For most of my life - especially during teens and early 20's - it happened quite easily, impulsively and fairly frequently. For that reason, I believe, over the years, I've gradually boxed up all intense (and therefore dangerous to my wellbeing) things in me and locked them away. As a result, I think that subconscious act has turned me into a mildly emotional - but ultimately happier - robot. So, I guess I'm wondering if anyone has experienced anything similar during their lives. If anyone has succeeded in keeping conscious access to their intense feelings/emotions without losing their minds (and how?). Or any other comments from the outside looking in.