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    I'm a 16 year old gay male and all my life I have an happy with who I am i have never doubted myself but latley I have thought of trans and what if I am but I do have anxiety I have intrusive thoughts I've had thoughts about murder rape suicide pedophile killing family and lesbian thoughts and I have liked non of these thoughts at all they scare me and I don't want to be trans I have never wanted to be a girl never showed signs and I say that to myself but then I doubt myself and then thinking of lesbian I also panicked about if this is linked to being trans I have always know who I was from about 12'13 I like men i have guy crushes I only watched gay porn but these thoughts I don't like them they make me scared and I talked to my mum she said Im not I have never shown signs but I'm scared I'm going to change my mind later on
     
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    Hey. It's going to be okay. I've had these same thoughts too. I've gone through this. Unless you felt like you are a girl trapped in a boy's body for most of your life, you're probably not trans. This is just your mind experimenting with gender identity. If you need me, I'm here for you, buddy. (*hug*)
     
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    Thanks alot and to answer that question as far as I can tell I have never felt like a girl trapped in a boys body. And you you please tell me what you have been through
     
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    One day, I was questioning my gender identity. I was crying and all that stuff because I really felt like I didn't know my gender. I missed school the next day because I felt so bad. Then I tried recalling my past. No transgender, bigender, or agender qualities about myself appeared at all. I then found out that I'm just a Pansexual guy who acts pretty feminine around hot guys. :slight_smile:
     
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    See I look at my past and I have no transgender or anything like that

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    But why am I having these thoughts
     
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    I don't know. I think that you're questioning your gender like I was. I really don't know, though. This is a guess. Here. If this doesn't work: (*hug*) Hope that you figure this out. Sorry if I didn't help much.
     
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    No you have been a great help I just panic about everything could you also tell em the thoughts you have had like did you think you were a lesbian
     
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    I knew that I was Pansexual already. I was thinking: "Hmm... I'm pretty feminine, so maybe I could be transgender." And then I would break down because I didn't know who I truly was. I didn't know why I didn't have these thoughts before, then realized... "Wait a minute! I've never thought about this before, so there's absolutely no way that I can be trans! I've always felt like a guy, (even if I get feminine at times), and I also don't want to break up with my gay boyfriend because of this. " I broke up with him anyway because I moved to Spain a few days ago.
     
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    Awww that's sad I hope your okay but I have never felt like I was and I have always been happy with myself
     
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    Yeah. It was the same with me. Don't worry. It'll get better.
     
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    Are you sure I'm. Not going to change
     
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    Like as a percentage

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    I'm also scared if the thouhts go through my head I am going to change and be I'm cared if let them run in my mind on going to change and this happens for every thought I have
     
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    You'll be fine. I'm 99.99999999% sure. Everything is going to be ok.
     
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    Thanks so much for your help if I have trouble an always look at this ho your okay

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    So to make sure I am not transgender?
     
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    Ask yourself if you want to go through many surgeries and might come out with a bunch of complications. If you are truly trans, you would say "yes."
     
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    I have always felt right with myself never diffent or wrong and I don't think I could go through any surgery I scared of anaesthetic and never waking up and I have never wanted to be a woman

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    But my brain says something else

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    I also compare myself to others
     
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    Hmm. Is there anything that makes you hate being a guy?
     
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    Then it makes no sense why your brain is saying that you might be trans.

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    Because for me, I hated myself, gender included, that day.
     
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