Okay, so I had a really good couple months and hadn't really been very depressed it anything, it's been nice. Well, highs have their lows and I'm swinging back down. Just naturally, but today was kinda a kick in the face. I just learned that my close friend whom I think of rather fondly wants to date my godsister. Well, she's been pretty short of luck with boys, so I worry about her. Now I just had to give the guy I like permission to date her because he's a really good guy and I want him happy and I think he will take good care of her. Not to mention that I'm really, really grateful that he was so kind as to ask me for permission, but this still sucks. I want him to be happy, but I'm just gonna get jealous seeing them together and I'm afraid I might lose some of both of their attention, and I know that's selfish, but I love them both and care about them both and want to be around them. I just wish I could make him that happy. So, I've got all of that on top of this low swing that's been brewing. Sometimes it just makes life feel valueless, like it doesn't even matter. Things go good, but it all just gets crappy anyway. I know that's the depression, but damn it feels real.