Hey everyone, I know this is probably not the website to be going for a question like this, but this site has always been an outlet for me and I figure some people could help. I haven't felt right lately. I really don't know how to describe it. I have always been someone who seems to have mood swings and overthinks (FAR too much). Typically, though, I will be in a bad / sad mood for maybe 1 day per month. The next day, I feel totally better. Lately though, I have more bad days and every once in a while, I will feel good / okay. I will sometimes go out with friends and such - during this time, I am usually distracted and I'm okay. However, whenever I am alone or not socializing (when I'm not distracted), I get really down on myself. I feel "useless" and start questioning the purpose of life - like why am I actually here? Some background info: I quit my job 2 months ago because I truly was not happy in that career. I quit and for 2 weeks I felt really good. I felt like a new person. But since then, I have started feeling worse and worse. I thought quitting the job I didn't like would fix everything - but I somehow feel worse (maybe because I am not really distracted right now and have so much free time?). I guess the job search not going well could be a side effect. Now, though, I am always questioning life and my worth. I really can't describe the feeling in words - I just don't feel like I am actually ever going to feel better. I communicated this to my therapist and she didn't seem to take it too seriously. Sort of like this feeling is normal. I broke down crying in front of her this past week and I rarely ever cry. I am just worried because its been a 1.5 months now. My family tries to talk to me and I just don't want to interact with them. I am basically closing people out at this rate. Again, I just don't feel right. Those scary, self-harm thoughts have run through my mind in the past (dating back to like 5 years ago), but I never acted on them and don't think I ever could. But I worry about reaching that point one day. I don't even think getting a job will help at this rate, because these "what is the point of life" thoughts seem to control my life everyday recently. I feel like one of the few things keeping me going at this rate is that hope of one day finding love - that is sad to say, but very true. It's one of the few things that motivates me to wake up the next day. If anyone has experienced something similar or has advice, it would be appreciated. Thank you.