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I'm going crazy

Discussion in 'LGBT Later in Life' started by Butterfly6, Apr 19, 2019.

  1. Butterfly6

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    I feel like I'm going nuts to be honest. I chose to go back to work for the past week and all of a sudden my feelings for men are back and my husband is sexy again. Suddenly I'm fantasizing about a crush I had before and can't get him off my mind. My sex drive for towards men is in full force and I don't feel like I'm in a male energy anymore.

    These feelings towards women are not important atm and to be honest they are somewhat non-existent. They are still there but they just don't matter. A week ago I would have sworn up and down that I'm lesbian, now I would probably identify with most straight women.

    I really really like this guy but won't act on it because I'm married. I do love my husband and am using the fantasy of this guy to make my sex life more lustful. I'm also feeling a bit guilty. These are my normal feelings about guys...my motivation to workout, dress sexy etc.

    Can anyone relate to this? What's going on with me?
     
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    I have found that I am capable of having sexual feelings for women (I’m a bi or gay or questioning guy) for reasons....other than....my sexuality. To feel like I am loved. To feel like I am safe. To feel like I am...not gay. I am just sitting with these feelings and not doing anything with other people (including my wife).

    Just something to consider - perhaps your feelings for men are an extreme form of defense against the idea of being gay or breaking up your family or being in relationship with another woman.
     
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    I get what you mean and this has happened before. When I was younger it always felt like I was stuffing down my feelings for men or for women. I'm sure this is a genuine attraction that comes up when the feelings for women are not as strong.

    I am and have always been sexually attracted to men. But these feelings for women are so much more intense.