I think I'm turning a corner?

What are you panicking about?

 

Oh that is something I am familiar with....if in doubt panic about everything haha.

Lets split it down. What about L are you panicking about?

 

So isn't this what you want?

 

You mean you'll be relieved if she isn't into you? Is it just because this is new and you feel like you don't know what to expect or what to do?

 

You think so?? Who are you trying to kid? haha

Sure it can be nerve wracking but every time you get nervous just remember all the dreams and stuff you have had. You want this and deep down you know you do but we all get nervous with new things.
I think the problem is you are imagining you as you are one second and then being in bed with her the next, when in reality there are several in between steps. These steps can be taken as slowly or as quickly as you like but they are only going to happen if you want them to, if at any point you don't like it or don't want it to happen then you can stop it and walk away.

 

I dont think you should compare the two they are going to be completely different. However I totally get why you are nervous.

Dating can be scary but try and think of it a step at a time. At the moment you are just getting to know a new person, nothing too scary about that, then if you enjoy her company you will be spending time with someone you enjoy spending time with. Once you are comfortable in her company then worry about the next step

 

RJay, I'm going to go out on a limb and guess that L is in the same situation as you. Coming to her gay senses, as it were. Maybe she's had a little more experience. You better be prepared for that jump.

And Silverhalo is right: there are stages. Remember driedroses' "conversation and making out".

 

The only thing you want to plan on is having a good time

Good luck, be yourself and the rest will take care of itself.

 

I agree. Just relax and be yourself. Try not to stress too much.

 

Sending smiles and good luck your way!

 

Good luck rjay!
You've mentioned a lot on your posts how badass she is, I think you are a badass yourself too! Badass talent and badass wit, those are to die for combo, lol. Ure a badass catch!
( not patronizing you, just my observation. Ok maybe a little bit biased coz I've been following your story. hehee)

Whatever the outcome is, I'm hoping for the best

 

I can't wait to hear how this turns out.

 

Just have a good time!

And, IF she is into you, you will be FINE! Listen, your nerves tell you that you want it- even if it is scary. Let me tell you, it is far more rewarding to lean into the shit that scares us than to run away. Yes, it can also be painful, but hell! That is life. And I have never kissed a woman that was a bad kisser. Just sayin'

 

I agree. It's far more rewarding than running away from the shit that scares us.