I think I'm turning a corner?

Ok so I'm going to go off topic a little here but I have my own update.

As of tomorrow I am starting a new job so I'm not going to be around as much as I have been. Don't worry I will still be popping by regularly and seeing if I can keep track of all the tangents you are running off on.

 

Congratulations on your new job, is it in therapy? Lol

 

Yes I'm using my fraudulent EC qualification. Haha no it's in data entry.

 

Definitely. She's always carved a path for me that I have diligently followed to the point where I didn't start to question what I truly wanted in life until I was around 25 and already had 2 degrees under my belt in the schools she wanted me to go to... Oh well. I like my career a lot thankfully but had I felt the liberty to explore my desires, Id be totally different.

 

Whoaaah!! Congrats!! We will miss you but yay for new jobs!

 

Thanks. I'll still be around.

 

I don't want to like this since your new job will be taking you away from us for longer periods of time. But, I do want to like it because Hooray for you! Congratulations on the new job!

 

Ha you are all going to be just fine.

 

Congrats @silverhalo! It's always exciting to start a new chapter.

Back to the moms thing.. it has been so so hard for my mom to accept that this may really be what is happening. Her and my dad still swing with couples (still weird for me to accept this!).. so she acts like having attraction to women is no big deal at all. She even told me that she always thinks of women when she takes care of herself. And she finds women very attractive. I'm like... mom.. you so realize you are probably on the spectrum then??? She doesn't see the if deal and sees it had just a sex thing. I am trying to get her to understand it is so much more than sex for me. Both of my parents just don't get why this has to be a big deal and think there are ways to be creative to make it work with my husband. Ugh.

 

Thanks

OMG just hearing those things about your parents is enough to deal with.

 

Holy crap yeah. I'm seriously scarred. My mom told me when I first told her what I am going through because she wanted me to "understand" that it's not a big deal. Not only is it incredibly frustrating and I hate that they can't understand, but I also can't unlearn this information!!

 

Haha I get why she told you but no, just no, that kind of information should never be shared. I am surprised you are not in therapy for that alone.

 

Thanks. Yeah I am pretty overwhelmed by the information. There was even a conversation my dad had with my husband that I was unfortunately there for. He said so many things that made me physically ill. "I don't even know how many women I've slept with. How about you?? (To my husband in a "joking" way). It's so terrible. The hardest thing is I have three youngner siblings that my parents made me promise I wouldn't tell. I wish I could to talk to them about it but I don't want them to have this burden of information either. My parents tell me swinging saved their marriage because it was either that or leave for my mom. So terrible.

 

Aww you have my deepest sympathies.Not sure you can subject your siblings to that haha. I literally have no words.

 

Thank you. I am surprisingly okay despite the weirdness. My parents went through some really bad stuff when I was younger and almost didn't stay together. I knew they were in a wild period post Mormon life. Didn't know this wild but I wasn't too surprised when I found this out.

 

Hahaha ohhh yes!!!

 

Well they do say what doesn't kill us makes us stronger

 

Speaking of Mothers, my Mom and I were out shopping one day and she commented on how she didn't like my hair and how I was dressed. She said to me " I don't know why you wear your hair so short and dress like that. I wouldn't want anyone to mistake you for a Lesbian." I said that I liked the way that I was dressed and that I would never say that to her or anyone else. And then she felt bad. But she still says things like that anyways. And newsflash! I don't think I could ever come out to her. She's very religious and judgemental.